Reality Can't Be Real

Let me ask you a question.

What is more improbable: the existence of God, or God not existing? Both, it seems, are impossible.
Obviously though, this isn't the truth.

The reason I say they both seem impossible is what follows.

Let's say God doesn't exist. And when I say God, I say that in a broad sense. A higher power or powers, a superior being, anything that was here before we, people, were.

So if He doesn't, what does that mean? How did we come about? Some scientists have told us it's the Big Bang theory, evolution, etc. We came from monkeys, which evolved from something else. Initially we were a one cell organism.
But what I want to know is, what was before that?

I can understand anything scientific, probably because it only explains what is 'possible'. But for something to be infinite, such as the universe or time? That, to me, seems impossible.

But there can't be an end to either of them. If there was an end to the universe, what is there? A brick wall? A black hole? What if we enter that black hole or penetrate that wall? And if there was a start to time, how did it begin? If you believe this, I don't understand you.

That brings me to the existence of God. An immortal being? One who wasn't born, and will never die? If you asked him how old he was, how would he answer?
What about this one: what would he say was his earliest memory?

It goes beyond anything logical or seemingly possible.
To me, it seems, the most improbable thing in the world is the mere existence of the world, time and life.

Magic and immortality can't be real, believers.
But what is real isn't enough, scientists.

I'll leave you with a quote from one of the smartest, if not the smartest, men of the modern era.

Einstein said "Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind".

That sums it up better than the hundreds of words previously.