I just wish I knew.

Why couldn't I change your mind?
It was as if I was left behind.
I felt so worthless, sitting there rambling on,
You were so quiet; I thought you were already gone.
I was hurt for the first time,
I had fallen after the long climb.
You wanted to die,
I just stifled my urge to cry.
We talked on the phone sadly,
It hurt so badly.
You asked if something was wrong,
I denied it and tried to stay strong.
I worried about you the next day,
Frightened, and wondering if you were okay.
You say you love me, but could it be true?
The truth, I just wish I knew.