The way her eyes shine when she looks at me makes me smile uncontrollably. Her smile and laugh would make my day, no matter how bad i felt. The jokes she made up would make me laugh even if they weren't funny. Every moment with her is like a day in a world of nerd ropes and tic tacs, but better! I'd scare her at night just so I could hold her.. It would take me forever to hold her hand, just because I was scared that she didn't want to hold mine. Every time i'd hug her I never wanted to let go, But I did.. The feeling I get when she says "I love you" would hurt so bad that i'd like it. And its killing me to know that I never had balls to say it back. But what kills me most is that I didn't have the guts to tell her not to leave. Because I never got to tell her how I truley felt.
