I am here lost in this place for so long
I don't want to be here any more
Who are you to tell me?
I am only here to breathe for you
Live for you each day
I don't want to say a thing
I don't want to tell you how I feel
So I do the only thing I know how
I hurt myself
I hate myself
For not telling you
How wrong you were
To make me go through hell each day
I know it's the only way for me
To finally control something in my life
But this the control I thought I had
Tuned out to be controlling me
And I hate myself more
I love myself less
And I look in the mirror and it's me
Was I really torturing myself?
To get back at you
Should I believe what my mind says?
When it has been lying to me before
Cause I know somewhere inside of me
Inside of my cold heart
Underneath the pain and scares
I hate me more
