Letters To Lovers Part Five: Fighting Fate

*this weaves in and out of rhyme...

Goodbyes are not my forte, theyre things that I avoid,
But something just keeps telling me, I really need to goâ?¦

Our time is up, our race is run,
Itâ??s over now, weve had our fun.

Iâ??m not saying I dont love you, but that theres not future here,
We planned about tomorrows, plotted things never to beâ?¦

Our love blinded the reason, we did not predict the hurt,
We werent thinking clearly, just expected this to work.

Theres nothing for you here with me, and even though Ive grown,
This person that I have become cant change who you still are.

When you question and we quarrel, make me fight for second chance,
With all the tears, the pain and stress, it loses all romance.

But that exit sign seems permanent, and I do not want to leave,
You may have learned that taking back is one huge trend with me.

That must be why Im staying, that guilt, that hope, and love,
Yet with every word you say to me, well it feels more like a shove.

Youre pushing me to leave, and Iâ??m not sure if you know it,
Im fighting back the current, but even steel beams bend, babe.

So should I stay or should I go? The answers up to you,
Youre the reason Im still here, so tell me what to do.

I may be the one to leave, but leavings still a loss,
And I told you, if I lose you, my life wont be much more

Life with you has been the best, but is there more than now?
Will we still be tomorrow? You know no answer, why or how.

Making up chaotic minds, also not my forte,
Youre going to have to help me here, its not all up to me.

There was once that I believed, I had faith in forever,
But it kind of feels like fighting fate, just to be together.

If something isnt meant to be, it tends to not work out.
Maybe thats whatâ??s happening, and maybe I should goâ?¦

* i took this back later, thank God i never gave this too him. i love him too much, just did not realize it...