*About my first suicide attempt. My best friend...
Tortured restless, can’t go on...

Feeling a little annoyed...
I can't stop myself from doing it again...

A new feeling I've never felt before
Makes me smile, makes my heart soar...

My eyes are closing faster
I’m slowly falling to sleep...

These crimson lines along my arm
Are drawings that I create...

*Dedicated to my cousin... R.I.P.*
I never knew your true fate...

It's such an ugly word
"Suicide", thats what it is...

Press your face into the pillow
Hide the tears you shed...

*This poem means a lot to me. This is how I feel...
You know that you should be the one to take the...

*It's long but please, PLEASE read all of it...
April 27, 2005...

It may seem so hard to believe
But I really am alright...

It is raining once again
It has been for a while...