You know, it actually makes me cry reading old conversations and remembering how happy we use to be.

I need to hear all your sweet words right now. I need your arms around me... I need to know that I'm loved.

Please take my hand and promise me that you'll never let me go.

You NEED to be friends first before becoming lovers. I think it's so hard for us being just friends now because we were never really friends. I had feelings for you since day one so I guess I don't really know HOW to just be your friend.

I pray that one day you will completely forgive me for all this so we could maybe, hopefully, still at least be just friends.

I've tried to hate you, blame you for all this, but no matter what I do, in the end I know that I brought all this hurt upon myself, and it hurts me more knowing that I hurt you along the way too.

So I guess no matter how hard I try to make sense of this, it'll always come back to the fact that things change, people change, and stupid girls like me make mistakes.

Always beating myself up for things that can not be controlled.

And I still can't read our old conversations without stopping to cry.

You know he loves you when he lets you name his penis and talks about it in third person. =)