I watched you watch her without a sound
I saw your eyes move, look down at the ground...

How am I supposed to feel while I'm sitting there...
In my heart I know you won't have noticed me...

You smile at me and everything else melts away
You wrap your arms round me and everythings ok...

How can I be still alive and yet feel all this...
without you how am I meant to get up...

I want to close off my ears away from your words
I wish I was able to stop the hurt...

I looked in the mirror, and just for once I saw me
with the tears streaming down my wet cheeks...

Last night I lay on my bed and cut my arm
No, its not sick, its not disgusting, its self...

I feel the fullness in my stomach
I feel it rising up tight into my throat...

I've tried so hard to forget about you
Its hard because you liked me too...

You come in here and you shout and scream
I've tidied my room, now its my car I should clean...

I was sitting there surrounded by you all
I was laughing and joking, and having a ball...

I remember that look in your eyes
I remember laughing as your face looked surprised...