I've lived in kansas since 3rd grade. I'm originally from Simla, Colorado. I've been in Foster Care for almost two years. My mom and I don't get along at all. She tells me she wishes I was never born. That whole situation is a mess. My 17 year old brother already moved out. He lives in Texas with Our dad so I can't see him. I'm not allowed to see my bio father until i'm eighteen. That situation is a mess too. My 8 year old brother is awaiting trial for molesting a 4 year old. Which was influenced by my mothers sexual behavior around us kids and the only kid that hasn't done something (that we know of) is 13 year old brother. So my life is very screwed up as you see. I try to express my feelings as good as i can in poetry but i'm not that good at poetry. This school year I thought I found my one and only man but I'm still way to young to have that happen no matter how much I want it to. My "one and Only" is Brandon Johnson and I love him dearly and he loves me to but we have a yo-yo relationship because I'm afraid to let him go and he is afraid of commitment which is not unusual for men. If you have any questions or comments just E-mail me. Thanx |
Why is love so rough?
I thought I was tough...
I'm not mad
I'm glad...
Guys are so dumb
They can be useful like your thumb...
You say you never please me
but if that were true...
Do you know how hard it is...to stare into your...
Do you know how hard it is...to kiss your soft...
Just like the millions of times before
He left me high and dry...
I thought I could bide my time
And wait for him to come back...
The other day I contemplated
If life was over rated...
When I look at you now,
It's hard because all over again my heart starts...
I feel like...
A papaper-clip...
DePrEsSeD aNd StReSsEd!1! |
I'm mad for thinking about you and changing for you and wishing for you && most of all not hating you when I should…but I can't. |
I'm mad at myself not you…I'm mad for always being nice…I'm mad for always apologizing for things I didn't do... I'm mad for getting attached...I'm mad for depending on you...And wasting my time on you... |