Will someone please comment my poem " numb " ill be sure to return the favorrr

If i were to die
right now
because i took a razor
and cut your name upon
my wrist
would you cry or would u laugh
would you come to my funeral

Please read and commment
"a sad cutters death" it would mean so much to me cuz i dont know if u feel the same... pleasE?

I cut and watch myself bleed
i hide the scars under my black shirts
im not proud of what i do
but its the only thing that helps me
i just feel its the only thing i can control
in my life and i have done it so long
i cant stop now. . .

For some people they just deal with it
others harm themselves and cause
physical pain, they like to bleed
its the only thing they can control

rate my poem:
self inflicting wounds