Postpartum depression regret anger and aggression...
Then one day after it grows and grows finally it...

Sitting here in this time in this place, looking...
molestation, rape, then drugs and sex...

Its been so long and even though i know hes gone...
What in life that once had color has faded to...

As i site in this place all quiet and white.
I think to myself this must be what heaven is...

When i first saw you after eleven hours of labor...
xoxo mommy...