There is so much horror and depression in my life.
So if I'm not screaming... it's safe to assume that I'm dead...

Remember to cross the road and never walk up the street...

(My friend said this to me.... it means if you cut up your wrist you'll die but if you cut across the wrist, you won't .....)

Today I feel happy,
Yesterday I felt happy,
The day before that I was happy,
Thats because I died that day...

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
But no flower can compair with you.

(I said this to my 3rd boyfriend)

Death and suicide is just another way to keep or detensions.... :p

Even the flap of a butterfly's wing can change the course of history...

(This is said alot and I just think its so cool....)

I can act innocent and cover the stains on the carpet but no matter how hard you try to cover something up the screams of those of inncoence will soon let the truth out into the open like a wild bird locked in a cage waiting to be set free...

Basically my life is full of things I like to now call the 3 D's and the one attepmt....

Depression,
Darkness and
Death.
ANd when the 3D's have finally come at the same time.... my attempt for happiness shall be....
SUICIDE.............

For why do we act as if we are immotal even if it brings fear knowing we're going to die...

Cadcendo abundo adeo abdico aduesco ast ambio nemo adumentum abies dum acc calamitosus....

Soz I have been learning latin and I wanted to try to wrtie this.. it means..

Destinied to die is what I am but can nobody help me during my suffering