I just can’t seem to understand
What happened to all of our plans...

I locked myself inside the closet
With my ears so close to the door...

Of all the people in this world
You came up and you chose me...

I looked straight into the mirror
For darkness and nothing more...

At one point I thought I could bear
All the memories we used to share...

I can fall in love all over again
Or get asked by a thousand men...

I’m lying here imperfect
Overwhelmed with pain...

To my family:
I don’t belong here anymore...

I am writing a poem for my baby boy
My world, who means so much to me...

My body most of all is aching
My head and mind feel far away...

You leave me breathless
I do not know what to do...

Last night I had this fantasy
This dream of me and you...