**She committed suicide March 15, 2005. I miss her...
Dear Rachel...

I open my mouth, but out comes no sound.
I try to smile, but all that shows is my frown...

One year later today
Ivan sits watching the falling rain...

Many secrets left untold.
Few words left unsaid...

Two a.m. on March 15.
My phone rings, slowly I raise my tired body...

At the top of my list of fears is love,
for no matter what it ends in tears...

A twelve year old girl.
Appears to have the perfect life...

I wait.....
For the day the man above takes me away...