Where are you where are you, baby, my love for you is true! Can't take this no more, you not here with me. You've become my insanity... and without you life feels o so lonely... If I could see you! and hold you.... ... God...if only*

Indeed Im quiet than before, not boring... Only because I'm thinking of him and feeling the pain he caused.

I dont know what it is or why, even though you were a jerk, I still seem to want you and have your existance around me some how some way...

You were the master mind, behind my destruction.

& One day, I will put my arms around you tightly pressing my body against yours, I won't help but to cry on your shoulder..... and I will hold on, Never to let you go again.

Ive tried so much, so much that it hurts to think... How was I such a fool? to be so blind. So many games, and I let you do this! I dont deserve this, yet my mind is dwelled on you. and I can't stop these tears, and these thoughts of you.

Baby your love is torturing.

Because your feelings have died, I've died too huh?

I would have thought you made used to this pain, until u make me feel it again...

And she wonders how... after all this time her tears have been hidden from the world for so long.