Xx- i heard u hav *self -esteem issues*...wud it help if I told u that ur [p.e.r.f.e.c.t]¿? -Xx

.:*dont* tell me I kant make [decisions]...i make them just fine...let me tell you a ~secret~...i chose «cutting» over s.u.i.c.u.d.e:.

.:i sit here listening 2 u c.o.m.p.l.a.i.n:.
.:so [*jealous*] of ur lack of p.a.i.n:.

I watch the b.l.a.d.e. *slit my wrist*
& /feel/ the NuMbInG p.a.i.n.
I [.:broke my promise:.] but I cudn't «resist»
cuz it makes me -feel- *ok*

~everyone *thinks* they know me...until they see my |.s.c.a.r.s.|~

«i was ¤happy¤ 4 awhile but i -knew- it wudn\'t last»
«i WaNtEd it to stay, but it went away |.too fast.|»
«i\'m -sick- of being LeT dOwN every ¤f.u.c.k.i.n.g¤ time»
«i\'m (dumb enough) 2 think that things r gonna b a.l.r.i.g.h.t.»

×im not ~*making a face*~ i'm tRyInG. not 2 [.cry.]×

Xx- so I watch u [.walk away.], knowing uv already ¤4gotten¤ u wer -here-...
& i {.walk away.}, knowing ur not watching, & i cant 4get ur g.o.n.e -xX

¤did u c me CrYiNg ×mommy×, did u kno -u- made me start¿?¤
¤u made me «feel» so w.o.r.t.h.l.e.s.s. that its [.tearing me apart.]¤

¤did u hear me ScReAmIng ×daddy× wen the p.a.i.n. got way 2 ReAl¿?¤
¤the p.a.i.n. from all the *anger* & the -shit- u made me fEeL¤