I don't want to cry myself to sleep
I don't want to pick up the knife...

Dark
alone...

Beaten
Lost...

You love to do it to me
You love to beat me...

A withered flower,
A blackened heart...

Living life the way I do
can mess you up and scar you for life...

He thinks he controls me, but he doesn't.
He thinks I'll do anything he wants me to, but I...

Just help me through this. That's all I'm asking...
written April 8, 2005...

I just can't handle all of this pain. You're the...
written April 8, 2005...

I always do the wrong thing,
But through the shouts and the screams...

You look at me,
you see a happy little girl...

I'll never be the same,
I was played just like a game...