It seems lately that I have become obsessed
Obsessed with getting back a friend I lost...

I want to purge
And release my pain...

Here I am, yet again.
I'm eating another candy bar...

Everywhere I look I see his face,
It reminds me that I'm just one big disgrace...

You're everything i ever wanted;; and everything...
So easy to feel it;; so hard to be said...

Bang
Bang...

Lately life has been so complicated
as it always was and always will be...

Making you cry.
Maybe I should just die...

As the blood falls from my arms I cry.
Why do I do this...

When i was 14 there was this guy
this guy that showed me love for the very first...

I try so hard not to think about the pain.
It's so deadly, it drives me insane...

Its been so long since i have written
life has been okay...