So sick of being the way i am..
Nobody understands as much as they say..
So i say..
F**k Bipolar!!!!

My defiinition for Bipolar Disorder;

B.roken
I.ndiscriable
P.ain
O.verdose
L.ies
A.nxiety
R.egret

D.eath
I.nsanity
S.miles
O.ngoing
R.unning wild
D.epression
E.ternity
R.age

So scared that everyone is right.
I know i need my pills.
So scared ill be taken away again
Locked up for a month.
But the scariest is knowing i feel much worse than last time.

I can't sleep just yet, I need to tell you goodnight.

I cannot fall, loose it all.
Sick of the lies, I cannot keep disieveing.
I dont want to be the victim this time.
Its exhausting to play this game.
Your too late, Ive already gone.

Shards of me too sharp to put back together.

Heart beats so fast, its coming out of my chest.
Knees start to shake, im going to faint.
Nausea curdles my stomach,
I start to plumment.

People know what to say,
But does it really work?
Because whatever they say,
I know im going kicking and screaming,
Back to that place.

When you start your life,
A coin is flipped.
Heads, your life is where dreams do come true
Tales, your life spirals out of control.

I was tales.

When she was down, she was very, very down.
But when she was high, she though she could fly. :)