I'm so lost I don't know
If I'm even breathing...

The weight of the world on your shoulders
Is enough to make anyone sway...

I keep hoping and wishing
The dreams i have will come true...

The love i feel for you
Is about as silent as a gunshot...

So close to closing my mind
To all the stress and pain...

I don't want to do this
But I know that I must...

I'm a spade
And thats not about to change...

If you want to hurt me world
By all means go ahead...

Everything is clouded
By all the sorrowful cries...

On a mission for eternal happiness
O guess being with you will have to suffice...

In my heart it was winter
Nothing but death and ice...

I thought I saw heaven in your eyes
And thats when I blinked...