You lost me, so why does it feel lik it's the other way around?

I never wanted to find someone I would be afraid to lose...

...this pain I'm feeling, this deep hurt, it's incredible I'm still in tact

I'm trying really hard to reinvent myself to someone stronger, someone who isn't dependent and clingy, who is brave, someone who doesn't need you anymore...

I don't even know what to do anymore. Are we better? Is it just that we haven't seen each other? Or are we harbouring feelings that are preventing us from taking a step forward out of this mess? I feel so far away from you.

You have ruined me.

This hurt runs too deep. If I'm the one that makes you happy, I don't want to be me anymore.

You have taken me. I am yours no matter how against it I am.

My love for you is ineffable, in complete honestly. So, I don't care if it is true, if I love you far more than you love me, if it is actually true don't tell me and don't stop pretending.

I keep saying "I can't take this anymore" but God, if you ever let go, I would just crumble. I can't be me without you.