Conflicting feelings
Self loathing and self hate...

I hate myself for all the pain, that i put you...
With my kisses and caresses, though to me, they...

I dream of a time when I believed
Before I was so cruelly deceived...

Silence slowly draws around me
Fills the room from wall to wall...

My eyes are burning, molten fire
My heart's voice rises, a mournful choir...

Time's passage slows, returns to right
As I awake from my darkest night...

Beautiful, Wonderful, Something I love
Yet never seem to get enough of...

It's 5 in the morning and I'm sitting here awake
Trying every trick I know to be rid of this dull...

Cold fingers close around my heart,
stopping it mid-beat...

Submission (Mindset)
An extension of desire, no will to call your own...

Flailing shadows smothering all
As dying sun does finally fall...

Oh sweet maid oblivion, how I love you so
You take all of my pain away, and you make it go...