Criticize while sympathize
Mocking me they smile...

Don't pretend you're looking at my name badge...
I know what you're really looking at...

Flashbacks.
Memories...

Immense amounts of pain that I feel crashing,
Wave upon wave...

My hearts ablaze
My lungs alight...

Why do you tell me you love me?
You raise my hopes so high...

Here is my confession.
I cry. Did you know that...

Struggling to keep the peace
Biting my tongue and drawing blood...

Back in the day when the world was so sweet,
Full of new people who weren't scary to meet...

I hold out my hand: please take it.
Fake it if you have to, just for now...

There once was a horse that stood on a course
And tossed its head with glee...

If I could feel a squirming, wriggling mass,
A bundle of limbs and soft, soft flesh...