&& you're number one on the list of my biggest mistakes.

And i use everything within me to keep myself from looking back.

I tried so hard to just get over you and i couldn't. now i realize that's now what i want at all. i don't want you to be some memory hidden in the back of my mind. all i want is to have you back.

Scars whisper secrets of past transgressions.
the floor and walls do remember well the blood that once stained their surfaces.
the halls tell tales of a horrible murder.
something is not right within this home.

I don't need numbness
I need healing.

Am I that insecure
that all he has to do is call me beautiful
and I'll throw all of my better judgement out the window.