I made this account back in 2005 when I was starting to express myself in poems, drawings, etc. I was going through some confusing things. Now I update this as a 19 year old who has gone through many things. I haven't had the most horrible life in the world. Actually I was raised in a rich family who went through rich times poor times abuse and more. But still I admit I haven't had a horrible life. The reason I am so plagued is because I think I'm cursed. No matter how good I am as a person and no matter what I do it seems that I am not allowed to be happy, like I don't deserve it. There is only one reason I can think of. that reason I refuse to openly talk about but simply... it comes down to.. Was I a miracle or a mistake spawned from satan or something. I don't know and I can't figure it out. But what I do know is that I believe that I am a good person with good intentions. And if i'm wrong i'm willing to face it head on because atleast that would proove my life wasen't a mistake and that i'm just doing things wrong.