A sad smile, one happy thing on top of a bunch of sad things resulting in a sadness just barley masked by the small amount of happiness being felt.

I want to sit out side on a rainy day... I just want to watch it all untill the cloads pull away and show the dazling blue sky, or the mysterously buitifull stars.

To fear some thing it means you also have hope, hope that it might not happen. If you don't have hope then it's only dread.

We don't fear the dark, we fear what is IN the dark.