If she smelt like me....
would it bring tears to ure eyes...
all the memories coming back...
would u close ure eyes as u hold her and think it was me....???

The bus churns loudly...
rain taps the window...
i see a couple down the bus....
there heads touching over the seat....
there eyes are closed...
there holding each other so tight...
he whispers...
"ill never let u go"

Why do u smile...
its not cos ure happy...
ure grinning like an idiot...
does it hurt to force it on dat much

It scares the ABSOLUTE F U C K
out of me...
when i think what i've become...

I snap into a delusioned state of hating u
pressing ON and ON
taking days as weeks...
and counteracting painful memories
with side splitting cuts
and pills coaxing me in2 placidness...
I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU!!

STOP TRYNA MAKE IT LOOK PRETTYY
URE JUST ANOTHER FAKE
WITH MAKEUP ALL OVER URE TOP
running out in trails of white
JUST ANOTHER CUT
JUST ANOTHER O.D
IDK HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE!!

IM SO F*KNG SICK OF HURTING!!
IM SO SICK OF THIS
GUT WRENCHING FEELING!!
THIS HOLLOW HEART!!
IM SICK OF WANTING 2 SAY EVERYTHING
BUT HAVING 2 HOLD IT BACK HOLD IT ALL BACK
let it BUILD UP TILL I BLOW UP
in2 a million shattered pieced of my HATE!!

TASTES LIKE IM ON MY WAY 2 HEART BREAK
falling 4 u like a suicde jumper
faster than a bullet
SCREAMING ALL THE
WAY DOWN!!

Coaxed into placidness
by pills of all sorts
haunting ure bloodstream
a mixture of liquid words

MY HEADS FULL OF YOU!!
seeping over the edge
the water running over the brim of the bath
retching up blood
aching in my bed
flashbacks of passouts
on the bathroom floor
DARKENING MY ROOM
barrikading the door