I've been in the dark so long
that normal encounters are like first time kisses...

Starving beneath starched white linen... stained with droplets of crimson...

U soaked through my skin
like a bullet through my brain...

Ive bit my lip for the lastr time
so sick of holding back my childish crimes...
my sleeves will fill up with my blood i bled for u...
and while im lying there blue...
there will be nothing u can do

With unsober intentions
and painful regret
ill take sum pills
ill slicemy wrist
ill ring u and shamelessly
cry and cry...
and while ure listening
there on the ph ill die

The pains still there
its etched into my flesh
n its there in my vacant eyes
u can see the hurt
my haunting past
memories i dont wana have...

I'll whinge how much it hurts
and cut...
cos its all i know to do
when my lifes to f**cked
and i cant follow through

Round and round on a mind f**cking merry go round........

U raped my mind...
took out every feeling im capable of expressing...
u ruined me
u lit me on fire...
n laughed At my ashes...
u just dont care anymore

I dont know how u were capable of hurting me so much...
u manipulated me...
u broke my heart...
used me...
told me drunken lies...
n i still care n love u so much x