STOP TRYNA MAKE IT LOOK PRETTYY
URE JUST ANOTHER FAKE
WITH MAKEUP ALL OVER URE TOP
running out in trails of white
JUST ANOTHER CUT
JUST ANOTHER O.D
IDK HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE!!

I snap into a delusioned state of hating u
pressing ON and ON
taking days as weeks...
and counteracting painful memories
with side splitting cuts
and pills coaxing me in2 placidness...
I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU!!

It scares the ABSOLUTE F U C K
out of me...
when i think what i've become...

Why do u smile...
its not cos ure happy...
ure grinning like an idiot...
does it hurt to force it on dat much

The bus churns loudly...
rain taps the window...
i see a couple down the bus....
there heads touching over the seat....
there eyes are closed...
there holding each other so tight...
he whispers...
"ill never let u go"

If she smelt like me....
would it bring tears to ure eyes...
all the memories coming back...
would u close ure eyes as u hold her and think it was me....???

....she took an age to fall
screaming like a lost child
feeble arms stretched out
she thought she could fly..

Litlle girls got over cooties
little boys leart not to think with there hearts...
when he says he loves u....
hes thinking with a different body part

DONT U HAVE ENOUGH SH**T
IN URE OWN LIFE TO
JUST LEAVE ME
THE F**CK ALONE!!!

Passed out...
a year ago
in my room...
a girl
nameless
faceless
scatterings of self destruct... most haunting my blood