Im so tired of being here
Depressed that u might show up near...

Thoughts and plans fly throughout my mind
Contemplating suicide with a knife in my hand...

~Dedicated to Ari Abramczyk~
A life unknown...

Oh my gosh
What do i do...

Cocaine,
Once life was ok...

I have been wondering
All of my life...

A tragic story
Will soon take its tole...

Why does it matter if i dont want to eat?
Dont want to talk...

No one ever sees
What is really me...

My memories
So bright with color...

They look at me
As if im not there...

Black roses
In my garden they do grow...