Ive never looked at you from this point of view
ive never hated u so much for just being alive

Everyday i wake up and think
whats the point of getting out of bed
if you wont be there'
to help me get through the day

Its hard to imagine you being gone
cause for so long the only place
i could picture you
was by my side

I told you to follow your heart
only because
i was completely unaware
of the fact that
your heart was with her

And im so tired of losing
one battle after another
so sick of being
some one to fall back on
so done with being
your puppet
and im so through with you

The fact
that you're letting me
get so close
and us go so far
is confusing me
because
you were my
only dream that
i thought would never come tru

Truthfully
i love it when
you play with my hair
and when you hug me
its like
you took me to heaven
and everytime
you smile at me
i melt inside

Dear pillow,
sorry....
i apologize
for drowning you
in my tears every night

And so today was so difficult cuz he hurt my feelings and i didnt believe he would so he looked at me and i walked away, i did the best i could

I never told you this but
im not really happy
my smiles arent real
and i cry every night of my life
shhhhhhhhhhh
this'll be our little secret