I asked
I cried
I yelled
I screamed
For help from you

You nodded
You smiled
you mumbled
you refused
Im dead because of you

Touch
prick
push
deeper
pull
across
wrists
slit

Tingle
throb
thump
smash
Depression..
Got my heart again..

Aim
fire
miss
F_UCK
wrong vein...

I miss the smile
I miss the laugh
I miss the life
I used to love

Death- the beautiful dream
Life- the excruciating pain
Me- worthless soul
Dying inside

I want to be loved
I want to love myself
I want to love life
But instead,
I m hated
and i hate
With all of my heart...

Im sad
Im angry
Im lost
Im hurt
Im dying
.....
To try suicide

I love you both
I swear i do
But life hates me more
And i hate it too

D esperate for
E ternal protection
A gainst
T his f_ucked up
H uman race