{**wHaTS thE pOInT iN lIvinG & tAKinG tHe nEXt brEatH, wHEn aLl yOu wANt tO dO iS DiE??**}

You took me in & held my hand
you kissed away my tears
you wiped away my blood red trails
you hugged me close
& promised id be okay...
f#ck you, i no you lied!
im still cryin, lonely & cold
the blood wont stop pouring
& i no im going to die..

Depression is not a public thing...
its private feelins between U & UR blade...

You said you cared.. you promised me you did..
but i can see you while you sit & watch me fall..
im almost at the bottom..
& i dont want you to see me hit the floor...

I held a gun to my head the other day..
It sent shivers down my spine..
Tears filled my eyes
& splashed down my cheeks..
You know what stopped me pulling the trigger??
That i might F*U*C*K up and not die...

I dnt thnkUrealizd hw mch i lovdU
Hw mch i neededU
hw mchUmeant2me
Bt thn U FuKD me round
&FuKD me up
I h8d U so much
I wntd U 2 di
bt deep inside i new th truth
there ws no point in lovin or hatin th prsn hu turns his bak wen i hv a gun2my hed

When youre angry, sad, or just plain pissed off.. you can always think of a better place to be...
But i cant think of that place anymore..
Coz I just dont wanna be...

So I dream of perpetual darkness
where no one knows
and no one cares
about my insecurities that bleed from within me..

{part of my poem "Love me please"}

{** Slit my wrists and hope to die..**
** Please love, while i die..**
**Sing me one last lullaby...**}

If I could explain how i felt right now, how much that low-life, lying, cheating f_uk-up h_o_re has hurt me.. I would have a god_damn slit on each f_uking wrist and be planning my revenge with my new best friend... {**SATAN**}
f_UcK YoU!!!