Longing for soneone you know isn't there...

That's hope.

- it's painful to know that we'll never be together...
but what hurts the most is realizing you meant everything to me...
and me...nothing to you.-

Despite all he once told u, despite u choosing to believe him, all evidence points in the other direction.

the truth is that u just arent a some1 special to him. n that's when the truth hurts the most.

I thought if only i pretended long enough that i didnt love you anymore, i will believe it...i thought wrong. the more i tried to pretend you mean nothing to me, the more i am reminded of how much you really are worth in my life.

Who would feel for you the way i do...if not me myself?

And i still think about the things we used to do..once, once..
and i still think about the things we might do one day..maybe..
and i still think about the things we will never do together..ever..

When you're the only one who still cares...
you know it's time.

I know we'll never be together, and yet that idea that we'll never be together feels so wrong because you feel so right for me.

It just hurts to finally realize that all this while, the love i believed was real, really wasn't so real after all.

I wanted to forget all we ever had
but i can't because the thought of forgetting you completely is more painful than just not having you by my side anymore.