I hate how i hate myself,
but have to act like i love myself,
just so i can live with myself. . .

Its easier to pretend your coming back, then acknowledge you are gone forever :(

Take this blade slice my wrists
I can no longer handle this. . .

Maybe its time i talk about
those things i never want to talk about?

Its becoming too much to handle on my own

I'll sit in silence. i wont say a word.
I never do. words just cannot express.
im falling apart, you couldnt imagine...

In my world there is no happiness
no colour.
just a depressing blackness
they have taken it.
my colour, my happiness
will i ever see it again?

As darkness spreads, and the light does fade
The pretty picture of my life starts to Break.
I crawl under the covers and fall apart.
For i cannot cope with what is my past...

And My Biggest Secret?

Im Not Okay.

Shes not alone...
But my god is she lonely...

Wen ur lil ppl tel u bout santa claus th eastr buny n encourage u n ur imaginry frends
its all a lie its all pretend
as u gro up they tel u bout th light at th end of a tunel things getn beta n it all workin out in th end
its all a lie its all pretend