Ii was excited ii thought that this time it would last;; but what was ii thinking, the past could never last

Sitting at home tonight really helped me think things through and realize how messed up my life really is ...cuz i'm still not over you.

Sitting at home;; thinkin things through, made me realize how much ii really need you;; ever since you`ve been gone, all ii could do is sit here and cry;; wondering if you would even notice if ii died?