I spent 6 weeks and a half
trying to picture me as a mom...

I grit my teeth as
he takes from me the last of...

We're here
just us...

My future child
I worry you will be like your mother...

"Love never wanted me"
I tried to hide my pain...

Sometimes I curse
this ever wondering mind...

I came to you
broken and bleeding...

I look in the mirror somedays
hating the reflection I see...

The day you passed
my heart started beating again...

I took off
with that first long stride...

As lactic acid floods my veins
I am finally free...

It's 7:58 am
i'm still awak...