How can someone hate life so much,
That they will do anything to kill themselves?

I should know the answer to that.

Before you smoke weed
You know you will want to eat,
But once your stoned
You know you won't.

5 more pounds till I damage my health.
15 more pounds till the damage is done.
20 more pounds till my life is over.
40 pounds in total till the deal is done.

It's so hard
To miss the ones
You love and trust
When they're just around
The corner.

But that is all
I have left to do
Since I'm the one
Who pushed them
All away.

When you ask me
What is wrong,
All I have to say
Is everything.

I'm afraid to be alone
Not because I won't know what to do,
But because I know what I will do.

Big Brother: Do you love me?
Me: You know I do.
Big Brother: Then why do you push me away?
Me: (Pause) Because I have to.

Never again let someone
See you cry.
For when they see you cry,
They will know how truly weak you are.

I feel like death
I want to die
I am not happy
Hear my cries.

You are making it so hard
Not to miss you.