This is your life- are you who you want to be?
is it everything you dreamed that it would be, when the world was younger, and you had everything to lose?

Watching dreams that i once had
feed the flame inside my head
in a quiet desperation of the emptiness i feel inside

The pain is there to remind me that i'm still alive

Nothing to run from is worse than something

I feel like i'm spending all my time just, just trying to be ok.... so that they won't worry....
and, it's so exhausting!

I like new york
it's real
there's no big smile on it's face
it's dark and painful
and it's honest

Not afraid of anything? ME?? Im scared of EVERYTHING!! Im scared of what Ive seen Im scared of what Ive done Im scared of who I am.... But most of all Im scared of walking out of this room and never again feeling the way I feel when Im with you

Soon, i know, i'll wake from this dream
but suddenly i know, i'm not sleeping

It's not true
that death begins after life
when life stops
death also stops

You remind me of the times when i knew who i was