There are no words to explain how I feel...so instead I play these songs of sorrow.

What do I do know? All these questions surround me...to live or die? Give up or keep going? I to wait for something better than all of this...but can I hang on for that long??? I just dont know....

SEE.dream.LIVE.
in color
stuck.in.a.world.so.black.and.white.

Trying to quit cutting is liking to stop a person that was healed from blindness from seeing. Eventually you just give up because you know you cant stop it.

just do me a favor and kill me already...

..and as I have come to realize...you can say something to a person as much as you want...but sometimes they will never understand...

Never stay, dying in the dark...
Just because you are too afraid to
walk....
and find the Light.

I love it when it rains.....because for once the world looks like I feel.

I cry everytime you hang up the phone because for awhile I was safe...I could ask questions and talk and get answers besides empty silence...then you say good-bye and I snap back to my cruel reality.

Living=Waking up each day knowing the pains you will see, expecting every losing battle you will fight and then going back to sleep crying.
Dying=knwing you will never hurt again and that the pain that haunts you will be forever gone....You chose...