Well, today I am not really thankful for anything accept my good friend Ian. I would F ****** die without him. Like today.
I wanted to kill myself, I wanted to shove this f **ng pencil in my throat. I really was tired of liveing, but then I rememberd about
Ian, I couldn;t do that to him. I love him to much, I have had so many troubles but, he\\\'s been there to save me. Kinda like a hero
I remember something that makes me smile in the bluest of days. That we would go gay with eavh other if women fail us. Our famous
quote \\\"Women\\\" I love it. Lol. He means the world to me, more than anyone, anything. I could never get anyone better, Ian is my best
friend, brother, gay lover, everything, more than any f u ck ing women will ever give me. When I get married I want Ian to be my best man.
Because. I really really, need him there, and, I love him so much, yes I think about him all the time, as if he was a new partner. if that makes
Any sense. He gets me past more sh*t then sh it can throw it self. He will never be replaced. And I am here when ever he needs me
But I feel like he does more for me then I do for him, and I don\\\'t like that. I want to do a lot for him, I want to make his day better.
Like he does with me. And without Ian in my life. I swear to F*C KI NG god I would die, no one makes me feel the way he makes me feel.
I want him to know how much I really care, and how much of an inpact he has put in my life. He has spent time that he didn\\\'t need to on me
And I will do the same for him. My time is devoted to him. I would do anything. If he asked me to kiss him infront of a girl, I would. Heh.
Kinda weird example but it\\\'s true. I would totaly make out with him even though I am not gay. I would shave my legs. Enough examples?
Yeah I think so too. Heh. Well, Ian, if you ever did read this in the future, I hope this means something, becase finding the words
Is hard enough to tell you how much you are to me. I would tell the world if I could. Without care. If people think I am gay, well
then they\\\'re phomogats. And they can suck each others 2 inch penis. =). I love you Ian, I F * CK ING LOVE YOU. =P My
world, my every thing. I have been trying to write this poem for him, but yeah, 3 months I have been trying, but only got one f* c king line
And that\\\'s \\\"I love you\\\", I want this to be perfect for him, everything, the words. And It will have meaning. And it will be on my
featured poems until the day I day. On my grave stone I want it to say the normal stuff, but also \\\'I love you (Whoever I was married to)\\\'
And \\\"I love you Ian, thanks for makin\\\' my life easier\\\". Well, time\\\'s up for writing, now I will have to wait till monday to talk more about him.
I love you Ian