I'm not worried about getting over you cause I know I will, I'm worried that you will never feel the pain that you caused me, that you will never understand just how much you hurt me.

I will not cry cause you are gone I will hold my head high and move on

You'll be the death of me

No matter what, I'm telling you now . . I will be okay .

I smile and laugh to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks and to prevent me from collapsing on the floor

Every single day the thought of suicide hides in the back of my mind, every single day . Yeah I'll put on a smile just to prove to you I can hold my shit together

After a while it's no longer a let down, it just becomes like second nature. It doesn't even hurt anymore.

& Maybe I don't deserve better,
Maybe this is as good as it gets . .

One day soon I'll turn away from you and act like we've never met, so take this seriously, one more chance

And now I'm trying to imagine how I lived my life without you before we met.