Every single day the thought of suicide hides in the back of my mind, every single day . Yeah I'll put on a smile just to prove to you I can hold my shit together

I smile and laugh to stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks and to prevent me from collapsing on the floor

No matter what, I'm telling you now . . I will be okay .

You'll be the death of me

I will not cry cause you are gone I will hold my head high and move on

I'm not worried about getting over you cause I know I will, I'm worried that you will never feel the pain that you caused me, that you will never understand just how much you hurt me.

You have that affect on me, to want to hate you but just can't but i guess its the way it will have to be.

It was always playing in the back of my mind, I knew we'd never make it I just wanted to believe we could just this once .

I sit by my phone and wait for you to call. You'd think I'd know by now that you won't.

What do you want from me? For me to tell you that's it's okay? Well it's not, you hurt me and this time I just can't forgive you, this time you crossed the line.