What do you do if you keep on apologizing for the things you never did? What do you do when everything seems to be going so good but in the end throws you over?

Dont walk into my life and play with my mind and heart. Then decide to forget about me and tear me all apart. Because I dont need this pain, no not from you, I can cry as many tears just without you.

I will smile and laugh
&& show that nothings wrong
Because only I will understand
My own hearts song

Things will only get harder
But soon they will get better
These tears will only fall faster
And this heart will beat louder
But soon everything is gonna be greater
Then what you made it seem to be

So many dangers I have to face
Many troubles in my way
But Im working at my own pace
And I will make it eventually one day
Minute by minute
When the hard times are at their worst
I know I will make it
But I will get thru the easiest ones first

This moment in time is real
That is including everything I see and feel
So don't mistake me as a fake depressed teenaged girl
Until you step inside my world

And it's too late to turn back now
So stop asking questions when, why, and how
I know what I did and to me I did it right
But to everyone else I just can't win this fight

How do you tell the ones you love
That you've been in so much pain
And everything you aren't is what your dreaming of
And that you need to let your sadness drain

I am running out of time
Time to think and time that was mine
I am not sure where to go
Or what to do I just don't know
Im not sure how much longer I can hold this secret of mine
The only problem is when I did it, it felt like it kept me in line

I regret all that I have done in the past
All the pain I gave myself never knowing that it would all last
I didn't think that this depression would carry on for so long
But now I can't change whats happened even though Im listening to my hearts song