What do you do if you keep on apologizing for the things you never did? What do you do when everything seems to be going so good but in the end throws you over?

What do you do when that smile on your face that was true turns to a smile that is a lie? What do you do when you are on that never-ending rollercoaster that keeps going up and down?

What do you do when you are so happy and then one comment from one single person turns your smile away? What do you do when you feel like life is a mess?

What do you do when you seem perfect in that messed up kinda way? What do you do when in the end you realize you only have yourself? Is that it...in life, in reality, you only have yourself??

I told myself today
that I have to be strong
Even though nothing is right
And everything is always wrong.

I regret all that I have done in the past
All the pain I gave myself never knowing that it would all last
I didn't think that this depression would carry on for so long
But now I can't change whats happened even though Im listening to my hearts song

I am running out of time
Time to think and time that was mine
I am not sure where to go
Or what to do I just don't know
Im not sure how much longer I can hold this secret of mine
The only problem is when I did it, it felt like it kept me in line

How do you tell the ones you love
That you've been in so much pain
And everything you aren't is what your dreaming of
And that you need to let your sadness drain

And it's too late to turn back now
So stop asking questions when, why, and how
I know what I did and to me I did it right
But to everyone else I just can't win this fight

This moment in time is real
That is including everything I see and feel
So don't mistake me as a fake depressed teenaged girl
Until you step inside my world