I hope when I die,
I'll go to heaven,
because my lifetime I spent in hell.

You're killing everything in me!

Many people are scared of death.
I'm not, because for me death would come as a release.

Again...
I feel lost
worthless
unwanted
hated
and
empty...
Somehow it seems like it's a never ending spiral.

I don't want to be your happy, ambitious and friendly girl anymore. Can't you see that this isn't me?

Today is one of the days I wish I would die and could see the people attending my funeral from above...Just to know if someone cares about me.

The first time they asked me if I'm okay I told them I'm not. But then I got fed up with their questions. They never understood how I really felt. So I decided to smile although I was dying inside.

Once again I wish I could end it all and could start over again...

I think you will never recognize how much it hurts to see the scars on your wrists.

It seems like I'm the biggest mistake in the whole world.