Please just make it stop hurting..

Shove me.
I love you.
Punch me.
I love you.
Scream at me.
I love you.
Kill me.
I love you.

I love my beautiful Boy, Aaron, more than any other thing in the entire world.

Blackened hearts, ruined lives,
Broken child, forgotten wives.

After everything you've done,
After every hit I've taken,
After every bruise you made,
After every broken heart..
How is it possible that i love you even more than i did before?

Only when i start to think about you, is when everything falls apart, and i realise everything never was.

Love is my suicide and you hold the knife.

Please don't give me a reason to turn away..Because you're the only excuse i have left to not to let go of all i have.

I can't bare to leave this world knowing that there might even be the slightest chance that you still love me.

Please tell me now..Was she fcking worth it??
:\'-(