Wishing you were here..

What am i to you? Am i just a toy you like to play around with or do i actually mean something to you?

And i long for you to say the words i wish to hear..

&& Why am i even wasting my thoughts hoping your thinking of me when i no that i'm the last thing on your mind..

.x. so swallow that last pill
with the last of the drink
so you can sleep forever
and never wake up to this nightmare of a life .x.

Drinking my life away trying to pretend my life is better than it...

&& who will you turn to when she's gone? you can't expect to run back to me! i'm sick of being second best!!

&& i'm sick of being me!

&& i just wish you'd just leave me 2 live my own life!

All these thoughts in my mind
Tearing me up deep inside