Why do we always wait and wait when we know they aint coming, why do we always stick around when we should just leave, why do we care so much for it to hurt us, when we know they usually are all the same.

And he may use me. and he may not deserve me but that doesnt stop me from wanting him back.

And i miss him more now casue i cant feel his touch.

" i dont miss you. i dont i dont."
i sing and sing those words. i almost believe it. than you come into my head.
" i do miss you. i do. i do"

N i can kiss watever guy but my mind is always on you. your touch. your eyes. your smile. the way u said "ur beautiful"

Is it so wrong to want him back.to see those E y e s.that S m i l e. To have him L o v e me like he used to?

And its bad enough that i miss him being around. Now im missing his touch. When did i fall so hard for this guy. I L o v e him and i H a t e it.

& i use other guys just to pass the time until he makes up his mind if im worth it or not.

& i lost you to the darkness. never returning. yet i will never stop loving you.

& i dont want to be inlove. its too hard. i wish my heart would listern to my head. just this once.