I only wish you could see
How much pain he has caused me.
How I've lost my motivation to survive,
How I regret everyday being alive.

You reached your hand out to me
And I foolishly grabbed ahold
The more I fell in love with you
The more lies you told

Now I start to wonder
Each and every day
What I could have done wrong
To make you take your hand away

Gazing out my window
Deep into the night
I look upon the moon
That gives all the darkness light.

Then I start to wonder
If youre staring at it too.
That means our eyes would have met
Like they can no longer seem to do.

Id cry for you,
Id die for you,
Bleed dry for you,
But I could never say bye to you.
Cant you see
That when you walked away
My world collapsed
One day seemed like three years elapsed.

from my new poem

(to my best friend )

I'm still crying in hopes you'll say you didn't mean a thing you said...

My heart aches, my stomach churns, my hands shake, my mouth is dry,
And I know you're smiling.

I'll say goodbye to you now
Don't worry, I will be waiting here for you in heaven...

And I'll be there,
Because God didn't want me to suffer anymore,
So he let me take my own life.

Smoke the joint,

Drink the liquor,

Feel the pain?

Then drink it quicker.

Rip open the surface,

And feel the sting.

Purge away your misery,

Unabe to feel a thing.

Yes,

This is what you have done.

You wanted to sleep with me

I said I'm not ready...

You said don't let the door hit you on your way out...

And I though I did something wrong...

You tell me you want to know my feelings.
So I tell you why I'm feeling bad.
When I'm feeling bad you say you hate it.
So I put on my happy face again.

I look back at what I used to be,
And I look at what I am now.
How I wish I could have blocked you out a little longer.
Maybe then i'd have a chance to make something of myself.